Zac-117

Sorry for the lack of updates; it's hard keeping up with all these different sites, and I hardly write poetry anymore TwT Anyway, I saw my last journal and decided that was far too depressing. I've been having an insanely great week and a better outlook on life.

Everyone smile!
-Zac

Lately I've been feeling more and more robotic. It's hard to tell when I feel, if I care. Like I just do whatever seems appropriate for the situation. Maybe I lost my heart somewhere in all this... now all I have left is routine and obligation. I don't know. I don't even know if I'm upset... I think I failed. That's what I feel like: A failure. A failure as a friend and as a person. But it's not really bothering me. I don't feel amazing, but I don't feel depressed either.

I don't know,
Zac

Felt like updating. For the time being my relationship is over. I'm okay, I guess. The future is foggy, the present is rather tasking, and I'm quite done with the past (well, somewhat).

I thought I had a day off from work today, I was wrong, and I work tomorrow for Halloween. We got freaking romped, an unending wave of customers who thought themselves too good to pick up after themselves. Joy. I felt like an idiot, I had wasted at least 4 hours, of what I thought was a day off, doing nothing productive; telling myself I'd do it later. I never to stop that, I have only myself to blame if I go through life unlived. I'm tired of making excuses, I need to create, to change, to wake up, and to stop sulking. After all of this I'm still my own worst enemy, I'm sick of it. I thought I had grown, but I hate falling back into old habits. I would say "well no more", but I think I've done that before.....

Oh, and while I was outside getting the trash trolley at work, some girl asked for my age and, after I told her, my number. All I could think to say was "Um, not right now?". I have no idea what she wanted with my number, it was probably some kind of prank.

I'm going to go write,
Zac

Hey people, I didn't forget about my loyal few fans.... wait, do I have loyal fans that aren't personal friends? Anyway, not dead, haven't been updating this site much, apologies. I might change my e-mail address soon, heads up.

I'm doing good, by the way,
Zac

It feels like a month since I've done a journal (and yes, I know it's just been over a week). I feel compelled to give an update so people know I'm still alive and well...

I'm out of school And the last day was extremely awesome, filled with hugs, pictures, and people signing my big paper hat ^^ I didn't even have to deal with my parents because I stayed the night at Benny's after school, so again, awesome day. The next morning, however, the universe decided that I was having too much fun and I had to dig a ditch so (through a long process) my dad could put his fancy camper next to our house. But it wasn't too bad.

I guess everyone's heard about the oil spill. It's sad, infuriating, but not surprising. I'm not going to rant because everyone else has got that covered, I just hope we can hurry up and get this spill under control.

My amazing relationship with an amazing girl is still amazing <3

I'm in a writing mood because it feels like it's been ages since I posted anything (Yes, I know it's been less than a week!).

You lose track of time when you're digging a ditch,
Zac